The Seeds That Are Sown!

(Brandie's Hand just after a pumpkin

carving accident a year ago)

FROM THIS SCARY MOMENT TO ...............

To God's unending Grace and Promises to

Seeds that are sown for whatever reasons even by accident, if sown in love and tenderness will produce wonderful fruit

(or Veggies)! 

The Pumpkins are ready to harvest!

Prayerfully Your Sister In Christ

Debbi

PS: Added 09/27/10 Lots of prayers were said for healing for both girls. Handling this situation with Grace was all God's doing. No panicking, No anger, No blaming, just a hearts full of hope that both girls would be ok! I love to jump to conclusions, get mad easily, to become distraut  to blame others and harden my heart and hold grudges.
But I let God be in control of this situation.   Both girls are doing great and even laugh at the situtation.  Both have a big Heart for God's unending Love!

Prayerfully Sister Debbi

(A broader story of the Pumpkin Patch
From an early post back in JULY 2010)

For Months we couldn't figure out what we had growing in our garden. This week God reveled the seeds that were sown.

THE PUMKIN PATCH
There is more story to this pumpkin patch
then meets the eye.

My daughter and a friend of hers was out back one October 2009 evening carving pumpkins. They had thrown some seeds in the garden unbeknown to us adults. While carving my daughters hand got stabbed with a knife from the top to bottom it went clear thru her hand. We rushed her to the ER and her poor friend was just over taken with worry and sorrow.

This was clearly an accident and I felt bad for both girls at this point. My daughter was a total drama queen that night, and yes she was hurt but some of the things she said was later so funny to all of us. Her hand has healed and she has a "cool" little scar to show off.
No lingering effects just a lot of inner circle jokes.

We had forgotten all about the "pumpkin incident" and didn't think about the pumpkin mess in the back yard till we started getting these plants this spring. After we tilled the garden and laid tarps down to keep the weeds from growing these plants appeared. For months we thought it was left over yellow summer squash from last year. This week we saw the true roots of the seeds that were sown. This pumpkin patch grew out of terrible situation that has turned into many laughs.


And now we get to laugh some more. I will be sharing more pumpkin pictures as the summer grows on.

Not letting this Behcet's Flair interupted my Life!

I am still battling headaches daily. My face is broken out and looks awful!  I have ulceration like canker sores through out my mouth. I fight a low grade fever, and gut issues daily. Yet I still am living my life and not taking this lying down.

I used to.  I would go to bed and not be seen for days outside my bedroom or bathroom.  I have been going to work, going to church and this weekend I went to Penelton Oregon to the 100th Round-Up And Happy Caynon Celebrations. 
 (It is a Rodeo, Street Fair, Pow-Wow all in one event!)

Hubby had to work there for one of his law enforcement jobs and I got permission a year ago to tag along this year.  Since my BFF lives 20 mins away in a near by town I wasn't going to let my flair ruin this weekend.  I have been looking forward to this for a long long time! 

Here are some pictures.

These pictures were take Sept 17 2010.

I didn't make it to the actual Rodeo.

 Just wandering Main Street Penelton on Friday night was noisey enough.

Saturday after a quiet morning at the Hotel we were staying at my BFF and I took a small road trip to Tri-Cities WA

to window shop at the Mall there.

  It turned into an adventure as I got turned around just getting to my BFF's house then she didn't exactly know how to get to where we were going.  My husbands Garmin Navigator I bought him for his birthday two years ago was stolen two or so months ago and I really used it alot.  I missed it on this adventure.  But a wrong turn here and there,  two round-abouts, and my lack of sense of direction we finially made it to the Mall. Amazing it was still light outside and only 5pm when we got to the Mall.

We left Tri-Cities WA. at 8:30pm and to my suprise getting back to the Hotel was a whole lot easier and we didn't get turned around on the way home.  I did a whole lot of slient prayers on the way home and trusted God to be our guides. The road signs on the road were plain and easy to understand.  Why didn't we just follow them on the way up?  Because we had a faster better route, My BFF had been there before so instead of trusting the Road Department we trusted our intuition instead.

If only our Christian walks were as easy as following road signs!  UMMMMM hello, the Bible is our map. Our Christian walk can be easy when we trust God and take His route!   His route is so much faster and

 less of a hassle then our own. 

Trust Him and He will guide you! 

Sunday after breakfest we headed home.  It was sunny but off in the distance  you could see a storm brewing.  

All along our trip home are Wind Farms.  Fields and Fields of windmill producing "green" energy.   We turned off the main road onto a dirt road to get a closer look!

These things are huge!! It takes one semi tuck and trailer per prop to haul these from the factory.

It takes at least four semi trucks for the base!  

We see them on the highway by our house all the time. 

Before knew it a storm was about to dump on us!

We got back in my car and onto the main road before the rain hit!  Good thing too becuase it was a gully washer type down pour of a rain.  

Debbi

Picture UpDates

Brandie's Blanket I am Crocheting!
 It is half done finially!   09/10/10

The Pumkin Patch 09/10/10
There is a story posted on July 17 2010 about this Pumkin Patch! God is so Awsome!

The Rose Garden 09/10/10

 

God's Creation 09/09/10

The Slow Fade

Behcet's Disease/Christian Walk

It started off with me waking up with that all too familar throbbing on the right side of my head. It was 2am, I get up take some medication and go back to bed and prayed for sleep.  I did finially dose off because I remember silently shrieking when the alarm went off.  I quietly get up I didn't want to wake up the husband as he worked late yesterday,  and prayed that the hot blast of the shower beaning down on my head would help relieve the pain. It didn't!  I took non asprin pain relivers with my morning meds.  I would go to work pretend all is great, go home at lunch take more pain reliever, and lay down with the heating pad and maybe nap for 5 or ten mins.  Rush back to work and when I finially was home at night I would take the migraine medication and again pray for relief.  

This would be a daily routine for about 8 days before I couldn't take it anymore
 and called my doctor and said this wasn't working.  So I took sometime off work
to go to the doctors office and of course my doctor was out of town,
 and I had to explaine to the doctor who saw me what Behcet's Disease is and what is like for me.
He prescribed the steriod pack for me. It is a pack of steriods taken for six days the first day you take 6 steriod pills and quickly taper off the drug. 

Little did I know that this was just a sign my Behcet's was in full action.  I always have an ulceration somewhere, my joints get stiff when it is cold no biggy. Normal life for me. I tend to ignore the little things the many bruises, small scratches that turn into painful sores, and night fevers.  My doctor bless his heart knows that I will ignore the small stuff.  So what if I had a migraine for two weeks and then all this other stuff crops up, I don't have a normal life.  But I intend and try to live it to the fullest I know how.

So yesterday I woke up with that all too familar pounding in my head again. Not to bummed about it becasue I knew I had a routine 8 week scheduled doctors appointment. At the appointment the doctor walks in the room and says you look terrible why didn't you come in sooner?   I said because I knew this appointment was near and I didn't want to be a nuisance since I had just been there a week or so ago. He asked me how bad my headache was today and then said never mind it has to be bad just looking at you then
He just shook his had and clucked his tongue.  As if to say you are very stuborn.

No not stuborn not really.
I just don't want to waste vaction time on this disease,
 I don't like missing work and pay to go see him so he can tell me what I already know.

He asked me a few questions and told me that he was putting me back on prednisone short term to try and kill my over active immune system. He gave me the why did you wait 8 days to call w
hen I had the migraine and I should of called when things were obviously getting worse
and not better even if the headache was mostly gone.  Blah ...Blah... Blah ....
Nothing  I haven't heard before.

He does the routine blood draw and orders other tests to be done to see how active the Behcet's really is. Tells me to go to the pharmacy and get the prednisone today and then go home and rest!

Ahhh Prednisone the steriod drug that most people with an auto immune disease hates. 
The side effects for me are:
 nausea, extreme moodyness, the jitters, the moon face, the never ending hunger and the ever lovely fast weight gain, that doesn't come off after you stop taking the drug.

But this is one of the only drugs with anti imflamitory properties I can take since my body reacts badly to Aprin, Mortrin and every other NSAID on the market. It also works the best during a flair.
 I am tired, my headache is back, and I am extremely moody. Happy, sad, extremely angry, all in a 1 min segment.Wow where did that just come from extrem emotional roller coaster.

So now I am dealling with the jitters and gritting my teeth at this angry feeling. But to be honest this could of been avoided had I just gone to the doctors sooner when the skin issues started a month ago. The first sign that my Behcet's is active again.

The I get that ahhhhhhaaaaaa moment with the light builb going off when you finially get something. Usually for me it was a joke told to me three days ago but this one is more deep.

How many times do we ignore God's quite voice?  You know He is telling me something yet I choose to ignore it. Shurg it off because it is no big deal. OR I know He is asking me to do something and I rationalize it or make up exscuses not to do what He wants.  Today it hit me I treat and deal with my Christian Walk like I treat and deal with my Disease. Then complain, whine and throw a fit because
my life isn't what I had hoped for.

I take my medications/read my bible daily.
But do I do other things like eat right/ apply what God is asking of me and do them correctly?
Do I see the signs and then act on them nope I ignore them in most areas of my life.
Disease
-The begining:
 Ulcerations or skin rash appears
 Action: shrugg it off for just one of those things that just happen.

Christian Walk
The Begining
The small quiet voice speaks to me.
Action:
Ignore it or shrugg it off as just a passing thought

The next stage
Disease:
Things are spreading a little and are a little more irritable to handle
Action:
Home remidies I can Handle this on my own. it will go away.

Christian Walk
God word speaks to me what that small quiet voice said.
Action:
Argue with God and tell Him I have things undercontrol

Disease:
Scars and more sores, joints, and digestive system complaining loudly.
Action:
More Home medication, Self Help and cut back on some things.

Christian Walk:
Life isn't going according to my plans things are rocky and out of place and God isn't as near anymore
Action:
Self help and Home remidies after all I can fix this.

Disease:
Out of control Multi system melt down, no energy, nothing left
Action:
Breakdown and call the doctor and complain because the treatment course is worse then it should of been.
I submit, and let the doctor take over the care.

Christian Walk:
Lonely, Life out of Control, Rock Bottom afraid.
Action:
On my knees breakdown, and cry why God why me. Fix this now.
What you want me to do what?  Oooohhhh ok I break down
I submit to God's will.

Disease
Slowly gets better
Christian Walk
Slowly gets better

Remission is achieved I can handle things on my own.  Again the cycle begins.

Either my Disease or my Christian walk is out of sink. I like being in control of things. they both can be  out of sink at the sametime or at differnt times when I give up control.

Lord help me break this cycle.  Help me see the signs in my life and act accordingly before things are totally out of control and I have to give up out of shear exhaustion.  This is not how you planed our life or our walks with you!  Guide me to a healthier approach to my Christian walk and physically well being. Help me to listen better and recieve the information correctly.  - Amen


Prayerfully Your Sister
Debbi

Another Season Change

The kids are back in school.  Lil Larry (20yrs old) is going to be going to the community college for Firefighting/Emt basics training. He will continue to volunteer with the the fire department here.

(Brandie took these pictures a year ago!)

My daughter Brandie (17 soon to be 18) is a senior and is taking college courses already. When she graduates she wants to go to Kanasas to College.  Kanasas!!! Do you know how far that is from Oregon?  From ME??? UUUUUGHHH I can hardly stand the thought.

(I took these 09/06/10)

Then there is John Curtis (16yrs old) (my youngest) who is a sophmore this year. Already he is talking about becoming a firefighter/Emt or a Cop just like his older brother or his dad. 

(Photo taken By me 09/06/10)

(My Husband took this picture at the Ice Caves near Bend Oregon a week before the above shots)

OK Lord, I never said I wanted my babies to run into a burning building or carrying a loaded gun!  Although I am very proud of  my family and their willingness to serve. Couldn't the boys (my boys) serve in a less dangerous way?! And there are plently of colleges Christian colleges even here in Oregon close to home for my daughter to attend.  Yes this is very selfish on my part.

I have to remind myself that my kids are on loan to me only for the time God wants me to have them. They are His first and mine second. I have to let go and let God work in their lives now. Am I ready NOO!!!!!!!-----Will I ever be ready to totally let go probibly not. 

I got attached to my kids.

As parents we will all have to face the fact our kids our growing up.  I am glad I have the Lord to lean on.  I know He understands. I am glad my kids have the knowlege of the Lord and now they need to deside on how they are going to live their lives. 
 Are they going to serve God or themself?

  As a parent I have prayed since the day they were born that they will follow Gods word & except Jesus as their savior. I prayed that their heartaches are not as hurtful as mine were and that they have a healthier understanding of
Gods love then I did during my teen, young adult years.
That they would be on more solid ground in Christian lives at this stage. 
 I prayed for the future spouses and for the kids they may or may not have. 

God has been faithful and so far most of these prayers have been answered.  So i will continue to pray for their Christian walks to grow and flourish, I will continue to pray for their future hopefully Believing Spouses and my future grandkids!

I will Remind myself over and over again that the kids were only mine temporary that they are ultimately God's childern and I will learn to let go and let God finish His work in them.


Prayerfully Your Sister in Christ

Debbi

NOW

THEN!!!!!!!!!

when they were young dancers!

The Three Kids at Grandpa Browns (Crooked River Ranch Oregon)!